Yesterday I shared why I no longer make New Year’s Goals. If you missed that post let me give you a quick recap. Although sometimes with good intentions, not all my goals lined up with the plan that God has for me. God knows exactly how my year is going to play out and He can account for things that I cannot. So instead of making goals that may or may not be the same goals that God has for me, I made it my personal goal to grow more and more in Him each year. In purposing to grow in Him, I am continuously growing in all areas of my life. A goal can be met, and I don’t want to stop growing. I want to continue to grow, I don’t ever want to come to a place where I stop looking for ways to grow. I don’t want to make goals that I will never reach because they aren’t what God wanted for me to do. Instead, I want to trust in Him and shape my year around growth and allow Him to set desires in my heart to grow in various areas of life.

So each year, I pick a word. I pick a word that is going to shape the growth of my year, a word that the Lord places on my heart to help me become more and more like Him. A word that helps me to take my faith and my relationship with Him to the next level. This year that word is Unshakable.

This year has tested my faith in Christ far beyond what I have ever experienced. One of the biggest things I can go back and think about testing my faith is this journey with Postpartum Anxiety. It has really rocked my world in many ways and has made me dig deep inside of me to find that inner strength that only Christ could give. Many times I have found myself questioning why I have to walk this road. I have never once questioned God’s goodness, I have never once doubted Him, but I sure have asked Him why a lot. I have watched my extended family get rocked back and forth this year through various things and it’s made me afraid. It’s made me wonder what this means for my little family. Sometimes it’s made me feel alone. It’s made my heart break. There has been a lot of things this year that haven’t gone as I would have planned, and there are so many things I still am waiting to see play out. In everything that happens I tend to get rocked pretty hard. I worry, I stress, I get anxious, I want to take control and make everything better. But I can’t. It’s not my job. And that’s where my word comes in.

I want to be unshakable. When nothing makes sense, I want to find sense in the firm foundation that I know I have. God has never failed me, and I believe He never will. I believe that in my heart and I have never once questioned it. I know that He cares for my family more than I do. I know that He cares about my children more than I do. I know that He has a plan for the valleys and He has a plan for the mountain tops. Instead of just knowing that, I want to live in full confidence of that. I want to live unshakable. I want to live standing firm in what I know to be true. I don’t want my trust in God to be easily shaken when things don’t make sense. I don’t want to try and figure it all out, I want to trust that God already has it taken care of.

Too often I find myself turning to fear and worry instead of faith. Too often I am allowing myself to be shaken instead of standing on what I know. This year, I want to grow and I want to be unshakable. Unshakable in marriage. Unshakable in motherhood. Unshakable in friendships. Unshakable in purpose. Unshakable in my dreams. Unshakable in all that God calls me to.

What that looks like, I am not exactly sure. I just know that God’s going to help me get there, and it’s going to be hard, it’s going to be good, and it’s going to be worth it.

What about you? Do you have a word for the year?