Becoming a mom of two is a bit scary. If I had to be one hundred percent honest, I have always been most scared of this transition. Bringing in one baby, it’s you and your husband. You got a teammate to help you through it all. It doesn’t make it easy, but you have the ability to tag team and get through those rough patches. But two kids, you’re one on one. Someone always is going to need tending to, watching over, attention, or something that could require both the attention of you and your husband at the same time. There’s no napping when the baby naps because you have a toddler now. Those first weeks of recovery, there’s no taking it easy, not with a toddler. It’s a little scary and overwhelming.

Then there are all those things I know I have to look forward to. The moment I lay eyes on this precious child I have been carrying for the last ten months. The stillness and peace during those night nursing hours. The newborn noises and smells. The cuddles to treasure once again. It is all such wonderful things to treasure once again. Things that seem to be so long in the moment, but when you look back you realize just how quickly it all went by.

March 1st hit and I became this emotional basket case. I look at my little 20 month old peanut running around and cannot believe that he is getting ready to be a big brother. He’s not going to be my baby anymore. He’s not going to be my only child anymore. These emotions take over me at the craziest moments and they completely overwhelm me. It goes by so incredibly fast. Here I am trying to process the thought of being a mom of two and I can barely handle the fact that my baby is no longer my baby, he’s a big brother, my first born. It is completely crazy to think about.

Things have been so much busier this time around, I attribute most of that to having a toddler to chase after. We intentionally finished baby girl’s room last weekend so that we could slow down and soak up time to breathe as we prepare for her arrival. We wanted to soak up the last few moments of us just being a family of three. I have treasured every little snuggle with little man and intend to enjoy every bit of them.

Becoming a mom of two sends your emotions on this incredible whirlwind full of the unexpected. It’s another big family change. You know the immense amount of love that you are about to feel is going to be incredibly overwhelming, even more so you will have this overwhelming love for two little ones now. You may wonder how that’s even possible without your heart bursting into a million pieces. You may wonder how in the world you’re going to handle two of these little ones that demand so much of your time and attention. It will be overwhelming and exciting all at the same time. There are days that I feel like I might drown, and I wonder how I am going to be able to survive. Then there are other days where I remember I am not alone and I am going to make it through. I know it’s going to be something that I take day by day, something that I will grow in just as I have grown through bringing one child into the world.

I’m not entirely sure what to expect, I have no idea what this new journey is going to bring, but I am so incredibly excited to welcome another blessing into our family. I can’t wait to see Jase as a big brother, and I cannot wait to watch Chad love on a little girl.

What’s your biggest piece of advice for transitioning from one kid to two? Did you have any of the same feelings when you made the transition?