Recently, God has asked me to do something that, if I am
being honest, really didn’t make much sense to me. I knew that it was something
that God was telling me I needed to do; there was no doubt about it. I even had
a recent retreat to the park so I could have time to pray and just refresh in
the presence of the Lord and He even gave me a verse confirming what He was
asking me to do. It wasn’t that I didn’t want to do this, with every ounce of
my being I wanted to, but it just wasn’t that easy. The logic behind it just
wasn’t making sense to me at all. I honestly couldn’t see how it was going to
help the situation I was in at all, if anything I felt as if it was putting me
in an even more vulnerable position to be hurt. I was being placed in a
position where I needed to make a decision that was more than just choosing
between right and wrong. It was about making the decision to trust God more
than what made logical sense to me.

Pleasing God meant more to me than understanding why He was
asking me to do something that didn’t make sense to me. So I decided that I
would do the hard thing, the irrational thing in my mind, and move forward with
what He was asking me to do. Once I decided that no matter how hard it was for
me that I was going to take a step in the direction that He was leading me, I
was immediately overwhelmed with peace. In this case, I didn’t feel an
overwhelming peace when the decision was presented to me. I knew that it was
what I needed to do, but I couldn’t get over how hard it was going to be. I
couldn’t get over how much it didn’t really make sense to me. The peace came when
I decided to get over my flesh, and carry on with what God was asking me to do.

Sometimes all you need to do is take that first step. The
emotions will follow, and so will the peace. God truly wants the best for us. He
doesn’t take pleasure in watching us have to battle through the things that are
hard for us. God truly wants us to live a life full of His blessings and
overwhelmed with His peace. When God is asking us to do things that don’t
necessarily make sense to us, and it seems like the world around us does the
absolute opposite there is a reason behind it all. The moment that I made the
decision to move forward with what God was asking me to do, not only was I
overwhelmed with the peace of God, but I felt complete and total freedom. That
is exactly how God designed our walk with Him to be, full of freedom. When we
make decisions contrary to what God is asking us to do in His word, we are
actually in bondage to the things of this world. When it becomes harder to do
the things God is asking us to do to the point where we decide that it’s just
not worth it, we truly aren’t free at all. God isn’t giving us a list of rules,
what we can do and what we can’t do, that’s not what it’s about. It’s about
living a life that is in line with the word of God, because in doing so, that
is when we are truly free.