As I am writing this I am in the final days of carrying this precious baby girl. Just three more sleeps in my bed at home to be exact, unless she makes her entrance sooner which this mama wishes she would. I cannot believe how fast this pregnancy has gone by. So much quicker than being pregnant with Jase, but it is probably because I have Jase to keep me a lot busier.
Pregnancy is such a miraculous thing. To watch your body grow a life and then to feel that life move around inside of you. It truly is incredible. I don’t take it for granted at all. I know there are so many women who long for the discomfort that it brings just to experience all the little joys that come along with it. I will always view pregnancy as a blessing because it is nothing short of that.
The second pregnancy is different. I have fairly easy pregnancies to be honest. This one has been a little more miserable than my first. Jase was probably the perfect pregnancy, besides indigestion and horrible ligament pains it was smooth sailing through his pregnancy. I was even days away from being induced and wasn’t anxious, antsy, or anything along those lines. I was so calm and just taking it moment by moment. This time I couldn’t be more ready to have this little girl. There has been a lot more ups and downs throughout this pregnancy and a lot of awful symptoms, but I haven’t been incredibly miserable and I don’t get incredibly huge so that really makes a difference. But the second pregnancy can be so different because there are all these emotions tied up with your first baby that get all wrapped up in the idea of having your second. Knowing that your first baby isn’t going to be your baby anymore, it’s such a crazy thing to think about.
You also know what to expect. You know about the sleepless nights, the endless nursing, the learning each other in the beginning, the emotional roller coaster you’re about to experience. All of that is old news. But you also know all the snuggles, and the smells, and the moments that just take your breath away that you are getting ready to experience all over again and you can’t wait. You can’t wait to look on the face of that precious baby and be overwhelmed with that love that is impossible to explain.
Pregnancy always reminds me how much I have to trust in God. How every delicate detail in my child’s development is in His hands and I have to rest in Him. It’s amazing how little control you really have of the child you are carrying within you. There is so much to worry over that there is that much more to trust God with. Pregnancy can really open your eyes to the wonderful powerful God we have.
I love dreaming about her. I love imagining what she is going to look like. I love imagining what it will be like to watch her and her brother play together one day. I think about how he will react to her. I think about Chad laying his eyes on his first daughter. I think about all the mommy and me moments we will have. I dream about this little girl who is about to be a part of our family in just a matter of days.
I remind myself to treasure every moment. Even when I am antsy, even when I am ready, even when I am tired, even when I am weary I don’t want to forget to treasure every moment. All you do is blink and it seems as if it is gone. The days are long but the years are oh so short. So right now I will tell myself to treasure it all, to soak up God’s peace and strength, and relish in His blessings. Because this time I remember, it goes all too quick.