It’s been awhile since I last posted, definitly not my intention. I was really hoping to be more consistent in writing this year, but things got a little bit busy. Anyhow, I am glad I have found the time tonight.
Lately, I feel like I have been in a season of “Observation.” I am not exactly sure if that entirely exists in everyone’s life, but I definitly feel like that’s what I am experiencing right now. God has been challenging my perspective in many ways about a series of different things. Before I go into exactly what I feel God is challenging me in, I want to share the reasons behind why I think He is challenging these areas.
Our walk with God is a constant growing experience, God is consistently wanting to mold and shape us to be more like Him. He does this not to control who we are and who we become, but because He loves us and has a plan for our life. He does all this shaping to help us become the person that He has destined for us to be. The more we seek God, the more He will show us things in our life that He wants to change. Sometimes it’s things that we are doing wrong and we need to be willing to change. Other times, it’s just the way we see things, our perspective of things. I believe that God has really challenged the way I see certain areas of life, He is shaping my perspective, He’s helping me to see things through a God perspective. At times this is not always easy, a lot of times it means I have to go through some hard experiences to learn the hard lessons. Sometimes it means I am not really going to understand why things are happening the way they are. But the more I begin to look at these experiences as God teaching me, the more He has been able to shape me to seeing things with a God perspective. The more we see things with a God perspective, the more we are able to live life the way He has intended for us to live. It’s actually quite freeing to know that there is something bigger than yourself out there.
My husband and I are very privaleged to be training in an amazing church right now. We are definitly under leadership who serves God and follows His leading. There is no doubt that God is moving where we are, it’s evident in every aspect of the church. For being so young, I feel like I have learned far beyond what someone at my age would normally be experiencing. At times, that’s a lot to take in, but I just continue to remind myself there is a reason for all of this. One important thing I have learned in ministry is that it’s not easy. You’re doing the work of God, and there is an enemy who wants to stop you. But it doesn’t mean you give up. It means you seek God more, you pray harder than ever before, and you keep moving forward with God’s direction. The more you move forward, the more you should realize you can’t do it alone. When you’re in a place that you recognize that you cannot do it alone, God comes in and amazes you with what He can do. I have “observed” leaders before me walk in this truth, many times I just sit back and watch. In watching I have learned so much of what ministry is about.
I am so thankful for my husband in more ways than I can even put into words. The committment that we made to eachother means so much to me, especially being the first in many generations to make this committment before God. I am constantly being challenged to be a better wife, but the only way I can be a better wife is to become a better daughter. The more I spend time with my Father in Heaven, the more He shapes me into the wife that I am called to be. The more I am a student of my husband, the more I know the best ways to encourage and challenge him. The more I observe others around us, the more I am inspired to be a great wife to the man who holds my heart.
Hubby and I are definitly not parents yet, but it doesn’t mean that we aren’t students when it comes to parenting. I watch kids from different families during the week and I get to be a huge part of watching them grow. This is such a huge joy in my life, I love that I get the opportunity to share and some really great moments. I have learned a trememndous amount of parenting skills and disciplines from watching the way the parents interact with their kids, as well as the way they interact with me. I am really blessed to have learned some very valuable lessons from them. I must say that they are wonderful parents, and their kids are some of my favorites to watch.
This is probably the biggest area in which God has changed my perspective in so many ways over the past few years. I think society is so quick to define leadership as “the one in charge” but I believe it’s much deeper than that. I believe that leadership is “the one who serves.” The one who serves by caring, the one who serves by listening, the one who serves by helping, the one who serves by being along side of those who are serving. A leader can only make a difference in the lives of people who know they care. A leader isn’t someone who tells people what to do, it’s someone who helps people take their abilities and strengths and become who they are called to be.
I have been sitting back and watching people who are involved and leading in all these areas of life. I have become a student to what God is wanting to show me. As I sit back and take in all that is around me, I have opened my mind and heart to all the little things God speaks to me in the midst of it all. It’s given me the opportunity to see all these areas with a God perspective which can enable me to make furture decisions with what I am learning in this season.
Sometimes we just have to be willing to sit back and allow God to teach us. Allow ourselves to be students of His word and of His leadings. There is a teachable moment in every day, but we have to be willing to be taught.